and I wanted you to know then just as I want you to know now: you have always been the one. through thick and thin, sickness and health - death and life life life. i have loved you and I have hated you, I have loved you until I have hated you and I have hated you until I loved you. i won't ever forget the past summer and the lifetime we have before us. how many nights are there left? thick with heat and memories and love and fire - how many are left? I won't forget you, i will remember everything about you. when I have grown old and I have forgotten how to take care of myself, how to wash myself and how to think about myself - the laugh lines on your face will still remain in my memory like a fresh present, waiting to be opened and explored. you will always be a part of me whether you like it or not.

when there is nothing left of me, everything of you will remain and vice versa. I won't ever get over this big love because it is the biggest love I have known. You are anonymous because I don't want people to know, I want to be selfish and say that I have no best friends, i have no best memories, and I have no best parts of myself. you and I, we both know what's true: you are my best memory (ALL MY MEMORIES) you are the only good thing about me, and friends I would have few if it wasn't for you.