and now I'm watching television on tape again, always rewinding to the start and watching until the end. My sandwich sits uneaten - salami and provolone and red peppers and totally unappealing. The show is about prison, it's about a god damn prison and I'm watching it (maybe 'cause I FEEL LIKE I'M IN PRISON) Nothing so serious as being unhappy, it's just as simple as being unhealthy.

All I want is a room of my own in a house of my own, with friends of my own and cats of my own. The time to be selfish is now, the time to flit, flutter and fly away has come. All I want, I want for myself. I am not selfless because the things that are coming are coming only for me. I am young and I am ready. I am ready.